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[Monday,
June 29th, 2009 at 12:06pm] |
im back in london, feeling rather miserable cause im all alone.
travelled ALONE for the first time yesterday. walked to the bus station at lyon and didnt know where the proper entrance is so had to climb over some barrier. when i got on the bus, the driver asked me QUEL AGE but i didnt understand it at first (I AM VERY SAD THAT I HARDLY PUT MY FRENCH TO USE WHEN I WAS IN FRANCE. the only thing i managed to ask for was a la plage and la gare..i need to revise! ) but anyways i think he charged me the cheaper fare= i look young. then i landed at gatwick. brits are truly very irritating. they opened like 7-8 counters for UK and EU passport holders and only 5 for "THE REST OF THE WORLD". hello, firstly, UK and EU citizens probably get pass without much checking cause the immigration staff are super racist and always taking damn long to interrogate people who look indian/middle eastern. and hello, obviously there are more people in the rest of the world category then UK and EU right. and because immigration clearance took so long (an hour plus), by the time i got to the baggage claim area, they werent showing the belt number for my flight anymore. so i panicked but in the end i managed to find it. rushed to catch the next easybus (cause i obviously missed the one i booked) and i had to take a freaking airport transfer to another terminal. i am never flying to gatwick again.
i just cant wait for the rest to arrive tmr and then go shopping AND THEN GET ONTO THE FREAKING PLANE TO GO HOME!
my trip was good.
berlin, prague, salzburg, vienna, venice, rome, pisa, florence, milan??? (haha), nice, monaco, lyon.
down point at rome where we had shitty hostel (NEVER EVER STAY AT IVANHOE) small room, cold showers, crazy receptionist, spoilt aircon. met shiwei and friends at salzburg, which is the prettiest place and the place we all liked the best! watched sound of music for the first time in my life there and then did the sound of music tour. i dropped my camera in salzburg though and had to resort to using disposable film cameras for the rest of the trip (im hoping the photos turn out good). lost hell lot of things on this trip. towel (yes i dont know how a towel can mysteriously disappear), water bottle and MY FREAKING GLOBAL PASS TRAIN TICKET. i left it on the sleeper train and the bloody italians refused to help me get it back. luckily i lost it towards the end of the trip i just had to buy one new train ticket.
maybe will blog more about the trip when i get back to singapore. shall make myself happier by lunching at hare and tortoise later. ALONE though :(
i really hope to be able to drive by the end of the next 3 months
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| fantasy world |
[Friday,
May 22nd, 2009 at 3:25am] |
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alien boy + jaws = love
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| omg. another entry. |
[Tuesday,
May 12th, 2009 at 3:40am] |
was listening to this that day and just bursted out crying.
(i always randomly start crying when i watch sad/touching videos or listen to emo songs.
but i guess this means abit more than normal sad videos/songs)
its by wangleehom btw.
ive been listening to chinese songs alot recently while studying.
makes me half emo half happy.. cao ge songs make me happy and sunyanzi ones are the EMOEST!
cant wait to go k after exams
深夜
机场冷清
好安静
我终于看见了你
穿着风衣提着行李听着md 走来走去
回忆
钻进心里
全是你
我走过去抱紧你
你的声音你的芙容你的泪滴回到我怀里
你答应我今天飞来
带着你迟来的真爱
就飞过大海
带爱情回来
今天看见
永远的第一天
终于实现
我和你的诺言
时间将一切拉远
爱在心里
没有改变
今天看见
爱飞过地平线
让我说完
我对你的誓言
这是另一个起点
我一定爱你到永远
(ooh今天看见爱的第一天)
回忆
钻进心里
全是你
我走过去抱紧你
你的声音
你的笑容
你的泪滴
回到我怀里
你答应我今天飞来
我要在这一杪中说i love you…wu baby
说永远不分开
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| 5 more days and i cannot tahan! |
[Saturday,
May 9th, 2009 at 7:42pm] |
<3:
studying in school,going up to the 7th floor,taking study breaks eating cup noodle outside 7/11,playing the piano in lt/music room,watching the boys play floorball in the class,going to school on weekends to study in the canteen,going to 6 ave to study(and eat my kids pasta/salmon breakfast set with the damn nice cranberries salad),eating cold storage ham/honey glazed chicken, staying there till late and then having my dad fetch me home.
FUCKING HATE STUDYING IN LONDON, BEING STUCK IN HALL 24/7, I WANT TO GO HOME NOW! I AM DEPRESSED!
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| smile, and move on. |
[Monday,
April 27th, 2009 at 5:19pm] |
If you love someone,
If you love someone, ask them for nothing. Don't hold them back from their
destiny. Don't keep them from going off in search of their own answers. Don't
ask them for commitment. You will know commitment is real when it is
something given willingly, and not as something obligatory. Don't ask them for
promises. If you are patient, if you have faith, you will know in your heart
when the right time for promises has come.
And when that time arrives, then you will see that you have both lost nothing
by setting each other free, and have instead gained a richer, fuller life, a wealth
of experiences, and a stronger certainty of your desires.
But should they not return to you, then life hasn't cheated you because no
promises were broken. Your bitterness will not last long, and you will feel
thankful and blessed that at the very least, this beautiful soul has colored
your life, that knowing them has already made life infinitely more meaningful.
By setting a person free, you run a risk of them not returning. But always
remember that you found them beautiful precisely because they were free.
People are like sunlight. You can feel their warmth, and their glow, but you
can't hold them in your hand and keep them with you forever. People CHOOSE
to stay. But a choice is made more meaningful when it is made despite so
many other options. Love has no restrictions and it is through mistakes that
sometimes we see the right answer. Because if you love someone, you ask
them for nothing and they will come back to you. .
yes shan, koped it from you!
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| dashboard is nice lor |
[Thursday,
April 23rd, 2009 at 8:02am] |
So this is odd.
The painful realization that all has gone wrong,
And nobody cares at all.
And nobody cares at all.
So you buried all your lover's clothes,
And burned the letters lover wrote,
But it doesn't make it any better.
Does it make it any better?
And the plaster dented from your fist,
In the hall where you had your first kiss,
Reminds you that the memories will fade.
So this is strange.
Our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance,
Where nobody leads at all.
Where nobody leads at all.
And the picture frames are facing down.
And the ringing from this empty sound,
Is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
And breathing is a foreign task,
And thinking's just to much to ask,
And you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.
This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable.
Yes, this is love for the first time.
Well, you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt lost for the first time?
Well, this is the last time.
This is the last time.
This is the last time.
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| francais, non! |
[Thursday,
April 23rd, 2009 at 5:01am] |
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since i've been encouraged to learn to express my feelings better (came to a conclusion that i find it difficult to convey my emotions to people) i shall blog, especially since there are so many things going through my mind now. i will try.
there are too many reasons why i should stop looking at fashion blogs. but i have an obsession with looking at skinny people and nice clothes. even if i will never look like them and can never afford some of the clothes i see. it is quite sad to know that you will never become ano hahaha. why do some people look like they do not have to study/work at all. i want to have a star on my neck. and i want that korean model's short hair. but i can't cause god gave me curly hair (and no you cant have rebonded short hair hahaha)
i may be dreaming about the ideal apartment/house too much. i need to be more practical and really look at more options before fixating my eyes on one. bye netley (yy i am okay. it's okay just that no more picnics in the garden hahaha) i really hope that we find the right one soon. shit. having images of how to decorate the house/my own room/having dinner parties/having housewarming again. stop fantasizing! btw it feels very adult-ey to look for flats.
do not run back to someone just because of familiarity and because you feel lonely. it is not an option anymore. no more. in case you've forgotten, three months is over.
sometimes, i think that there is no passion in my life. i never fight for anything that i like. i let everything slip out of my fingers too easily. i do not put my faith as the centre of my life, i easily stop pursuing what i like to do and too many friendships i've allowed to fade away...
and lastly, the true reason why i am feeling so shitty. fucking exams. i am usually more motivated than this. everyone says that at the end of the day i will do well and damn it, i do want to prove everyone right and get first for every module (buddy, i am very inspired by you!) but i know that that is just way too impossible. i refuse to look at my handphone to see what time it is (ie how much time i have wasted staring at this computer screen since dinner time (but i successfully self-confiscated my laptop yesterday by letting shiwei bao guan for me) and btw my computer time is singapore time and my brain is not so mathematically inclined that it does self-calculations on its own so therefore, yes i am in self denial. but whatever it is, the guilt of not studying makes me feel cui, when i feel cui, i dread studying even more, and then i feel even more guilty and ... vicious cycle. and just realised that if i am going to waste time, i might as well do more productive things (like go shopping!) rather than slacking in my room using the bloody internet. as of now, life sucks. looking foward to singapore day though. painted my nails red in preparation of it already :)
maybe i should go watch xiaxue now. will feel momentarily better (she's damn funny) but then will be guilt tripping afterwards. ah, fuck care.
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to feed the appetite of those who complain that nobody on their friends page blogs, i shall post this. 
